What will my church look like?

So after my last post I needed time to think about what I really wanted my church to look like and I have had ideas running in my head about it all week. I have a hard time articulating exactly what I want it to be like not exactly what i want it to look like. Some of the things that I have come up with are: I know that I want to have my church in a building that does not consume much energy. Not because I am going green, the reason I want it to not consume a lot of energy is because I want to give it to the community and for every penny that I don't have to pay to bills to keep my building up and running the more I can give to the community. I also would not take any more money from the church that what was absolutely necessary to put clothing on my family, food on my table, and a roof over my head, and when I say a roof over my head I don't mean a mansion, I mean a small house that is just big enough for my family. I read today that a priest make 44 thousand a year, (did you know that is more than I make) What do they need all of that money for? So now with that out of the way I will number what I want or what I think should be in a church, not in any logical order, just as they come into my head. I will try and explain my thoughts the best way I can.

1. The church will be open to the public 24 hours a day, 7 days a week, 365 days a year.= in the old days Churches were open all of the time, they were a place to go and sit and reflect, if you were having a hard time and you needed to have a quiet place to be to sort through your thoughts you could walk into a church sit down and think. If you were in trouble and risking persecution you could ask the church for sanctuary and you were granted asylum within the walls of the church. The church was a place of protection, not a place that said if you don't follow theses rules and if you don't learn this than you will never get into God's Kingdom. Which brings me to my next #
2. Anyone is welcome in my church there will be no memorizing of bible verses or prayers, there will be no prerequisite for getting into heaven, or going to hell, if you make a mistke realize that you have done that, and ask for forgiveness all on your own, God will listen to you at any time of day or place.
3. There will be no set time for worship, if you feel the need to enter a building to get closer to God, you can come on in, if you want to sit at home on your front lawn sipping on wine and talking through things on your own so be it. You don't need to be present every Sunday at my church in order to get closer to God, he loves you no matter where you are.
4. I will have no worship services at all at my church, I want it to be an open discussion, if you have a question lets get in a group lets discuss it and lets look to see if we can come up with an answer. Not one single denomination agrees with any other one, and the bible has been translated so many times that not a single one of those is correct either, at least in my opinion.
5. My church will be filled with couches, if you want to come in because you need peace and quiet, and if you fall asleep fine, sleep as long as you need to, most people think that you have to be attentive and listen in order for God to hear you, that is not true you don't need to listen to a person tell you what God wants from you, you just need to know in your heart what he wants.


MORE TO COME LATER.

Church

So after I fell asleep last night I was woke up this morning by David coming in and stating that he didn't want to go to church today. When asked why not he said just because I don't want to go today. I tried to talk him into it without making him feel guilty about not going and without handing down any punishments because he didn't want to go. Since this morning I have had so many things running through my mind as to what a church would have to look like if I were to ever start to go again. At this moment in time I do not believe in the church or the Bible at all. I don't need to go to church in order to feel the love of that hire power. I only have a few minuets before I have to go to a boy scout leader meeting so I will not get into my idea church setting right now, but I will get into it as soon as I get home. As far as the leader meeting goes tonight I am hoping that I will not shoot myself in the foot because I am going to make absolutely sure that they want me to be a leader by telling that that I believe in God but I do not believe in church. Than I am going to let them decide with no hurt feeling if they really want me to be a leader, I will never steer a child away from church but until I find the one that suits my needs I will not endorse or support a church. That is all for now, look forward to seeing my blog on what I think a church should look like in a couple of hours.

Oh Boy what a look inside my head you have now!!

So here I sit it is after 1 am and I would love to be sleeping but I can't. I am sure you are wondering why it is that I can't sleep, it is not for any of the normal reasons that people don't sleep. The normal reasons in my mind are money, love. children and work. No I can't go to sleep because I am focusing on so many different and strange things. For a while it was taxidermy, I wonder how it works, and why people would want dead things hanging on there walls, and why is it most of the time people only have the heads of things on there walls. Is it because they don't want huge male animal parts hanging out, I am sure I would not want to walk into a lodge and see a big deer penis staring me in the face.  OMG I am laughing my ass off at that thought. I hope you are too. The next thing that came to my mind is zombies, yes that is right zombies. I was trying to figure out what would happen if there was a zombie outbrake. How long would the zombies last if they only eat humans eventually the humans would run out don't you think? and why do zombies only eat humans. I know in "The walking dead" the zombies eat a horse so I guess that is a good thing. If the horse turned into a Zombie horse would it only eat other horses? and in Resident Evil 3 the crows fed on dead flesh and turned into zombie crows, and at some point they must have attacked there own kind because there are about 300 of them that attack at one point. Does that mean they had turned all the other crows into zombie crows and the only thing left was the humans? What does that mean for other animals? I mean the dogs that are in the Resident Evil movies are experiments gone wrong and they seem to want to attack only humans but they must attack other things as well, but the movies don't go into that much detail. Another thought I just had but the name of the movie is not coming to me at this point, and I can't remember the actors name either, but he is the last man in a big city and he goes out every day to use his radio to see if others are out there and he has a dog, and the dog gets bit by a human zombie and he has to put the dog down. Anyway I guess my point is that humans will feed off of dogs if they have no other choice and I am guessing that every other living thing on the earth would start with there own species and than move on when they have no access to that anymore. But why on earth did the creators of zombies make it so that the things fed off of there own kind? could you imagine zombie cows? I don't know why but for some reason that is the first animal that I thought of that I would not want to meet if it were a zombie. I couldn't pick something more menacing like a tiger or lion, I had to go for a cow. 

Monday is a new day.

I did not realize that it was Feb since the last time I have wrote anything. It has been such a long winter. So much has happened that I don't even know where to start. I feel as though I have been through so much and when I started writing this blog it was to get out all of the frustrations and I have just been holding everything in. I am not sure but it seems as though I have had a tough winter at work. Most of it is because One of the individuals that I worked with died in October. I have been holding so much grief in that I let it get to the point that I was avoiding all of my co-workers, and I quit doing things at work that I really enjoyed. I closed my self off at one house and ignored the other one completely. I didn't really get to know the individual that moved in shortly after the one passed away. I quit finding enjoyment of all aspects of work. I was put on this earth to do this job. It is the only thing that I am good at and I am really good at it. It is time for me now to get back on track and realize that I am here for all of the individuals at both of my homes and even though I am hurt by losing one it is important to remember that there are still individuals living and I want to make there life the best it possibly can be. Monday is a new day and a new work week and from this day forward I am going to go in with a positive attitude and I am going to do what I really enjoy. I am going to continue to love each of my individuals I am going to get to know them again and take pleasure in seeing them smile. I am going to tell my staff that I am sorry that I was not stronger before and I let the one death take to big of grip on me. But now that I have talked it out with some people I feel better. I have reaffirmed to myself that I am a good person and the choices I made for the one individual is the right choice. I don't need to distance myself from the rest in fear that I will make a bad choice. I am sure that if anyone else was put in my shoes they would have made the same choice. So in the end no more beating myself up.